Ramadan Diary

Hey again  !

Twice in one day that's so not me :P 

So since its Day 17 of Ramadan and I dont  think I am doing exceptionally great so far , I've decided to take things under control and start manage my time better ( not sure how blogging about it will help but I am blogging anyways !)

where am I so far ?

The last time I read it was like 2 weeks ago ! not so impressive

Amr Khaled  'The story of Islam in Spain' following his program online is one of my achievement !
great , inspirational (thumbs up)

I am so far behind in my exam preparation (embarrassingly behind) 

 Ahmed Shugairi 'Reflections 9.0' a program about activism and community commitment 'thumbs up'
 

'Arabs in America' a good thing about watching it on youtube is you get the chance to skip the cheesy parts of it but its good ,  Egyptian flavored (maybe too many of them but I cant complain its alright)   

My final Rota assessment is next week and the preparation is not that great ... 

One thing to add;  my broken leg is not a good enough excuse for not being on top of things especially that I am on a sick leave now and  totally pampered by my family ( I do nothing well other than chilling :D)

Alright so 60 minutes youtube ( which is never the case 'cause I always end up watching a small video here and a small video there ! ) plus chatting , surfing randomly online ..its out of control I have to admit :)

I dont have enough time to continue doing this anymore ...I need to prioritize my list to do and focus more ..

actually I ll leave you guys for now and start my time blocking 

cheers !

Surviving a broken leg

Hey there world ! 

Its been a while .. maybe because I am a bit caught up with the preparation for a test I want to sit this September ( Its not going great by the way !) and I currently don't have a 24 hour internet access ( I think anything less than 24 is a nightmare) which is a bit funny because when I was in Iraq , I always had one . Now that I am in the UK ..! what can I tell you ?!( well.. you have to start somewhere)  

So this Ramadan isn't exactly my bestest ! I broke my leg :/ how ? I tripped ( with my own legs !)

 and no I wasn't drunk ( I don't drink and its Ramadan! how could you think that :P)...

Simple things become daunting when you can not walk ! I made a huge mistake by telling my mum who once knew she decided to book a flight and come over ..thankfully I manage to convince her it isnt necessary. Same day few hours later (thanks to her of course), my phone didn't stop ringing as she managed to tell everyone she knows...
That same afternoon, after spending a good ten minute journey from my bed to the apartment door ..I was a bit taken back to see my aunt on my door step ( she lives a good one hour away and shes never visited me before)
'Yalla pack and lets go '
'hmm..'
'Yalla yalla ..'
'alright'
because I wasn't really sure how use those crutches ...guess what! I tripped one more time ..I know !
I ll leave you now ..

have a nice day 

A come back or !

so after a really really long time . I m finally blogging again (really excited about that ) :D .
I m not quite sure on what Im going to write exactly but you are going to see more photos for sure. And I m planning to make my blogs more regular .

Have a blessed Ramadan everyone

Baghdad International green zone

'Hello'

'Hello , can you hear me ? '

'Yes perfectly '

'I'm calling on behalf of the prime minister office ..we've already sent you an email ,this is just to confirm what is stated in that....'

'I've seen the email '

'Great , do you recognize the place from where we gonna pick you and the rest of the candidates '

'Not really ..the map attached wasn't easy to follow '

'Ok the place is exactly near a ......'

On the day of the interview

Just so you know ,This wasn't my first interview , after 2 interviews I was short listed together with a number of other doctors ..to my surprise I couldn't recognize a single face ...all other candidates were ....new!

'Mommmm !!!'

'What's wrong ? A blast ...'

'Relax nothing I'm alright ..its just that I think ..well this is just a different offer , I'm not sure..what shall I do?'

I finally did go with the rest to the green zone ...

'There is only one explanation doctor ...You have  submitted your application twice to both offers'

As a matter of fact I did '><'

Shoot

Series of unfortunate break ups

5 months ago 

'Care to explain ?'

'It was just something that everybody our age is doing nowadays '

'?! so it did happen ?'

'you are making a fuss out of nothing'

Of course  this is my side of the story , but I can assure you it wasn't nothing .. No gal I know would tie the knot with a guy who believes in the open relationships crap ....end of discussion .

3 months ago 

'I thought about us for a long time and I think it would be better if we end it now ...please I don't want to offer any explanations .. I prefer to keep my reasons to myself so please don't ask me why ...' and the letter keeps on this way , I was quite surprised to say the least !! a break up email ! Well  that's new one i did what he said though ... I didn't feel like I want to know the reason behind his sudden decision ...the guy is simply irrational ...the world turned out to be full of such people , I wonder why no one has ever warned me about that before

 I felt......hmmm nothing ! Maybe because the guy was a jerk ! I don't know!

3 days ago 

'I really think that we should talk more '

Yea well I really didn't think likewise ..there wasn't anything left to say...we aren't a match ..not even close ..the only reason  I didn't break up with him earlier was my parents .... I just couldn't cope with his egocentric  silly attitude  anymore 

Any regrets? No ...i do believe , it ended for the best to all of us

Casper the friendly ghost

I've been planning to blog for so long but I guess my procrastination had beaten all my prior attempts to do so  ...not this time though .... Come see why !

If you had the chance to read my previous posts  , you might have guessed that I'm already doing my second year residency in baghdad ...

After a long struggle with the corrupted ministries in my beloved free country ,I have managed to retrieve my post in the university  last January ..

With my uni post , my internship in the attached teaching hospital , All was going super great career wise .I was physically exhausted but un proportionally euphoric ...life was pink !!

'you're the optimistic face in this miserable cancer team' my senior used to say 

Well this was true , until the beginning of June when the chief residents called for a meeting with manager of the hospital  just to tell him that of all the residents in the floor i was getting 'special treatment' from the seniors of medical department 

So another meeting was set , This time I was part of it ..I had very little to say in response to that mainly because it was  so ridiculous a claim that I could not imagine the management of the hospital would be serious about  it .... the next day It was all in writing ' undisciplined doctor who always gets away with her mistakes because of the special treatment she's getting ' ..bottom line in less than 2 working days I  was fired from my job in the hospital ...yes fired ! 

It took me awhile to grasp what was happening i mean it all seemed so untrue , simply a bad dream !   

But there was no time for any contemplation.... I had to react quickly to get my job back ... which I would've never been able to do without the support of friends and family ... 

It took me along time to come with a convincing theory of why all this had happened .. Why a resident at least eight years older than me worked so hard for more than a month to pull out such a thing ??! It's true that we're in a competitive training but that simply does not cut it ....

 I was working harder than anyone else because this is just the way it is in my culture as a woman you have to work so much harder to get the same recognition of your male counterpart ... Maybe I worked harder than I should be !! 

In the end , I was successful in reversing their decision but I guess without sufficient evidence, they already knew I would be able to do that ... A message was meant to be sent by all that and I got their message ....

I left the floor altogether , quit giving presentation and other med activities ...i even quit going to the canteen !! In  other words, I decided to be invisible....and to starve :P